Going back to original blog!!!!

Ok this is the last time I do this, I promise. I have moved back to my original blog. martyandrachel.blogspot.com. So for further good reads. Yes, I am blogging again, so go there to be entertained.....I hope. haha! And spread the word!!! (If you want to add the other one to your private blog, just add rachel_gubler@yahoo.com for the email.)

The End?

I am going into hiding. It's just been too crazy to keep this up lately. Too much going on, too much to reevaluate in life and I need a break. I will come back when things calm down and when I feel like coming out of hiding. Going into a cocoon as a caterpillar and coming out as a beautiful butterfly. Peace out!

Update

I'm not dead! Yay! haha. Sorry it's been so long. Not that i have a ton to talk about since it's always the same old thing but I wanted to at least write something so someone knew I was still alive. I got a new niece last week and she is adorable. She was born to martys brother Nick and sister in law Angala. This is their second child. It was nice seeing the new baby. Her name is Marian. I will be taking some pics of her later and will post them when i do.
Lately I have been feeling so inadequate with pretty much everything. I suck at my photography, I suck at being a friend, I suck at being a human being pretty much. I have been trying so hard to get our name out there so we get hired for more photography jobs, but no matter how much I beg for people to "Like" us on facebook they just won't. And then when family needs a photo shoot done they don't ask us, they pay a bunch of money to have someone else do them. Thats such a slap in the face. You know we are struggling to get more experience and to get more known, and yet they still support us by having us do their pictures. It sucks! I shouldn't complain though. We have had great support from quite a lot of people but it seems to just stall. I am reading so many books to teach me more about it so I can be better at it, but all that knowledge doesn't do me any good if we still can't get work. It's hard in Utah cuz everyone and their dog is a photographer but still, I just want to do what I love. ok, enough complaining. Sorry.
I have been trying to get healthier lately and it really has been some hard work. I think my metabolism decided to retire the day i turned 29. Cuz ever since then i have not been able to lose weight. I have drastically changed my diet and workout a lot, and it's still staying stubborn. Stupid body. haha! Ok well my fingers hurt from writing so I will go for a second.

The Best Recipe EVER!!!

Spinach and Artichoke Dip-New York style
2 jars (6 oz.) marinated artichokes (chopped)
1 package (10 oz.) frozen chopped spinach
1 clove garlic (chopped)
1/2 cup sour cream
1/2 cup mayonnaise
3/4 cup parmesan cheese
Preheat oven to 375. Mix all ingredients together and place in square baking dish. Bake for 20-25 min. Serve with crackers, baguettes, or chips. Serves 6

This stuff is to DIE for! If you have ever had the dip at Olive Garden, it tastes exactly like theirs. Thought I would share!
P.s. Thanks to one of my many adopted moms, Gwen in New York, for this recipe!!

Combined days-15 and 16

I am combining days today since I haven't written recently enough. Plus, i am bored so I need to make more of this. Ok so the subjects are Day 15 – Something you don’t leave the house without. Day 16 – Your celebrity crush.
I can't leave home without my cell phone (in case the kids need me or if I need help in some way), my keys and my Ipod. Oh and money, that is important. haha! My celebrity crush would be Gerard Butler. HE. IS. HOT!!!! And as a bonus, he can sing!! YUM!

Day 14 – A TV show you’re currently addicted to.

This one is easy. My favorite show above all others is Vampire Diaries!!! LOVE IT! There is not a Thursday that I miss it..............unless it's a rerun or the season is over for the year. (I have even skipped parent teacher conferences for it) haha. Don't worry, Marty went in my place. ;) When it is not Vampire Diaries night, I love watching Human Target, House, Bones, American Idol, Kitchen nightmares, Hells Kitchen, Lie to me, and Raising Hope. (Obsessed with FOX much?? I think so!)

Day 13 – Your favorite musician and why?

I am skipping day 12 cuz it wants a pic of the place i grew up in and seriously I have no idea where to get a picture of Lindon, so you get this instead haha! Ok my favorite musician is Carrie Underwood. I idolize her. Hands down!!! She is living the life i have ALWAYS dreamed of living! I literally want to BE her. She is not shallow and actually cares about her image instead of throwing it away like most musicians. She is a good person and her voice and music are the most beautiful things ever! Here is a pic, just cuz.....

Day 11 – What’s in your makeup bag?

I actually have a ton of makeup! It may not seem like it cuz i rarely wear it. (Just don't see the point. The only people that see me are my coworkers and my kids and honestly I don't think they care what i look like.) I don't give myself that much time to get ready in the morning so I have just enough time to slap on some foundation and maybe some eyeliner, mascara and eyebrow color. But most days it's just the foundation that makes it. On special occasions i go all out and use everything there is out there, but that is few and far between so meh. haha! I probably should do more just cuz, but I have lost the will to care what people think of how I look...............sometimes. haha! So yeah that is my makeup "story".

Day 10 – A photo of your favorite place to eat.

I LOVE LOVE LOVE to eat here:

They have the best fish and chips and the BEST peanut butter cup shake. YUMMY!

Day 9 – A photo of the item you last purchased.

Sorry these days aren't all together, i keep forgetting. Yesterday I bought the Hungry Girl 200 recipes under 200 calories cookbook. i am really trying to lose this weight. So far, it has not been cooperating so I guess starving more is the answer. :( Heres a picture of the book:

Day 8 – A song to match your mood.

Yeah i know, I keep forgetting a couple days so I am just going to keep going with the order instead of trying to catch up and figure out where I should be. Ok so this one will be tough cuz there are so many songs for how I am feeling in a day. I go all over the place with my mood every day but i will try and pick the one that fits best. It's "Telephone" by Lady Gaga and Beyonce. Here is my favorite part of the song cuz it explains exactly how I feel sometimes at work when I just want the phone to stop ringing!!!

Stop callin', stop callin', I don' wanna think anymore
I left my head and my heart on the dance floor
Stop callin', stop callin', I don't wanna talk anymore
I left my head and my heart on the dance floor

Stop telephonin' me
(Stop telephonin' me)
I'm busy
(I'm busy)
Stop telephonin' me
(Stop telephonin' me)

Day 7 – Your dream wedding.

My dream wedding is something I never got to have. I did get my dream hubby though! My dream wedding would be magical and beautiful. Lots of flowers, lots of nice dresses, lots of friends and family and LOTS of laughter and kisses. I don't really know how to describe it. I have never gotten the chance to really plan my dream wedding so i wouldn't know where to start. Our wedding in Aug. 2000 was small and simple. We didn't have a lot of money and didn't have many friends or family that approved of us getting married so young so we had maybe 40 people come. I had a beautiful dress, that in no way will I ever squeeze into again. My aunt did my hair and our colors were blue and white. We had a small cake with a mouse cake topper. (I was obsessed with animals then) haha! Here are some pics.

Day 6 – A photo of an animal you’d love to keep as a pet.

I want a Tiger as a pet. They are beautiful!!

Day 5 – A photo of yourself two years ago.

I haven't changed much in 2 years but here ya go.

Day 4 – Your favorite photograph of your best friend.

These are my best friends.....I can depend on them, and love them unconditionally and never have to worry about them talking smack about me behind my back..........so far......haha

Day 3 – Your idea of the perfect first date.

My idea of a perfect first date is the one that me and marty had on our first date. lol. We were going to the sweethearts dance and he came in a sexy tux and opened the door of the car for me (his moms van) and we went to Little Caesars to get a pizza (before they had the already made pizza waiting for you) and while we were waiting for it we went to the smiths next to it and got some pepperoni cuz I LOVE pepperoni by itself and we hung out for a couple minutes. Then we got our pizza and went to Purple Turtle to eat cuz our best friend worked there (Sherry!!!). After that we went to the dance and cuddled and danced all evening and when he took me home he kissed me! Oh yeah! I was in heaven. lol. The next morning he dropped off a heart shaped box of chocolates at my door. I think I fell in love right then. (I may have left out a few things but it's been 11 years so I can't remember everything:)) That's my idea of a perfect first date!

Day 2 – Tell us about your job.

I work at a software company and people call in for help on either how to do something on their computer or to have the techs fix an error or problem. I am an operator. I take on average 200 calls a day and on busy days it's more like 300 calls. It is pretty stressful at times but a great job. It pays good, i love my coworkers, and I get to work with marty. I am very grateful for it......when i am not super stressed and just want to go home. haha! Sometimes we get extremely rude people call in that make your day go to hell and I really hate that and some people are really really dumb and make it hard to help them. But again, it's not too bad. So yeah. That is my job.

Day 1

Today has not been a bad day actually. I was all nervous about it because it is still year end at work, but after the initial tons of calls coming in for a couple hours it slowed way down and I actually have time to breathe and relax. I am so grateful for the break. I am also grateful for the dr. who told me that I should eat more then i was allowing myself to so I don't feel like i am starving constantly. Yay! Also I went through the weekend with TONS of opportunities to drink Mt. Dew and I didn't!! So I have been (Mt. Dew) sober for 10 days! Thats the longest i have gone without my precious dew for several years! Very proud of myself, pat on the back for me. haha!

30 day challenge

Once again, I am stealing this from Courtney . Hehe!

Day 1 – A photo of yourself and a description of how your day was.
Day 2 – Tell us about your job.
Day 3 – Your idea of the perfect first date.
Day 4 – Your favorite photograph of your best friend.
Day 5 – A photo of yourself two years ago.
Day 6 – A photo of an animal you’d love to keep as a pet.
Day 7 – Your dream wedding.
Day 8 – A song to match your mood.
Day 9 – A photo of the item you last purchased.
Day 10 – A photo of your favorite place to eat.
Day 11 – What’s in your makeup bag?
Day 12 – A photograph of the town you live in.
Day 13 – Your favorite musician and why?
Day 14 – A TV show you’re currently addicted to.
Day 15 – Something you don’t leave the house without.
Day 16 – Your celebrity crush.
Day 17 – A photo of you and your family.
Day 18 – Something you crave a lot.
Day 19 – Another picture of yourself.
Day 20 – The meaning behind your blog name.
Day 21 – A photo of something that makes you happy.
Day 22 – Whats artists are on your Ipod?
Day 23 – 15 facts about you.
Day 24 – A photo of something that means a lot to you.
Day 25 – What’s in your purse?
Day 26 – A photo of somewhere you’ve been to.
Day 27 – A picture of you last year and now and how have you changed since then?
Day 28 – Your favorite movie.
Day 29 - Your biggest Pet Peeve
Day 30 – Something you could never get tired of doing.
Day 31 – A photograph of yourself today + three good things that have happened to you today.

With that decided...........

Thanks to my wonderful friends who have made me realize the true intent of this blog and that it doesn't matter if you have no comments, I still want to keep it up cuz it's fun and I get to update whoever reads it on what is going on in life. Right now, I would call this week Hell Week. It has seriously been the hardest, most horrible week ever. It was year end at work and that means every single dentist office calls in for support which means endless calls, super stress and LONG wait times. It also means getting yelled at and insulted for hours from people who expect a professional but they cannot act like one. Added to that stress is me going on yet another diet and trying to be healthier and not eat things that are bad for my body so that leaves a whole lot of stuff out that I cannot eat like my precious Mt. Dew. I realize I have a serious addiction to it so i am going to think of it like alcohol addiction and not even let myself have some on the weekends. It is no more Dew for me. It's very very sad. But all the weight gain I have been dealing with and everything else it's getting to much to deal with and so I need to start taking control of life and make it better. I saw my dr. yesterday for advice and she is referring me to a dietitian. I just want to be healthy and actually feel good and have energy. It is really really hard and I just want to eat. I feel so hungry and I hate not having my fav foods. But it will be worth it. I feel so emotional though. I seem to cry constantly from everything coming at me at once and it's so overwhelming. i am hoping it slows down in all aspects so that i can finally chill. Marty is the best hubby though. All he has to do is give me one of his famous "marty hugs" as I like to call it and I feel instantly better. Everything is better with marty around. He just makes me so happy and he puts up with my weirdness and stubborn nature. Just seeing him makes me feel so much love I can't describe it. He is such a good guy. I feel so blessed to have him in my life every single day. I am very grateful for my kids too. They are the best and I love coming home to see them everyday after work and get big hugs and hear about their day. I don't know what I would do without them to entertain me. Ok, I will not mush anymore. Gotta take more calls..............sigh*

Stay here?

I am still trying to decide whether to keep this blog alive anymore. I don't really feel like anyone reads it and there's no point anymore. If you want to see this stay up and going, comment on it. Show me the love.